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December 23

Born on this day....
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1943 Queen Sylvia of Sweden
1944 Gen. Wesley Clark (Ret.)
1964 Eddie Vedder
1981 Meagan Mercedes Soria
1984 Kevin Isaac Dudley


Died on this day.....
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1948 Hideki Tojo (hanged for war crimes)
1992 Eddie Hazel


In history.....
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619 Boniface V becomes Pope
1620 Construction of Plymouth Colony begins
1979 Soviet military units occupy Kabul, Afghanistan
1990 The Republic of Slovenia votes to secede from Yugoslavia
2012 The day Mayans predicted to be when life on Earth ends


In life.....
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This child recieved the most loving parents in the universe.

Brownies and Spoiled Pumpkin pie

I know how he feels. Tis the feeling of Cleveland. THE BROWNS SUCK

Survey

I must first thank Mr. Reeve for this suervey....

What is your name? Kevin
Are you named after anyone? yeah after some kid my mom had in her class
What's your screename? KDidles
Would you name a child of yours after you? Prolly not
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? Kathleen (this is straight from the horse's mouth)
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? Marshall....it's such a ...shitty name
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? Dudley...I don't know why people have such trouble with that. Dudeley, Douglass, Duckey, Duffey, Doogley
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? Nah, I wouldn't.
Basics
Your gender: male
Straight/Gay/Bi: ¿bi?
Single? yup
If not, do you want to be? N/A
Birthdate: December 23, 1984
Your age: 20 (well in like 4 days)
Age you act: i don't know....20
Age you wish you were: I dunno. High School again sounds nice
Your height: 5'8"
Eye color: Brown
Happy with it? Can't change it
Hair color: Black
Happy with it? Can't change it
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: left
Your living arrangements: With Marshall....my dormie....and at home with my parents
Your family: i've got one yeah
Have any pets? Used to have Rudy till my mom found out she was allergic to the little mf.
Whats your job? Student but I wanna quit that
Piercings? nope
Tattoos? none
Obsessions? Airplanes. Airplanes. Airplanes. Airplanes. Airplanes. Airplanes
Addictions? Airplanes. Airplanes. Airplanes. Airplanes.
Do you speak another language? 9 years of French and all I can say is "Je ne parle pas français."
Have a favorite quote? "To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a little better; whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is the meaning of success." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Do you have a webpage? Yeah this blog thingy that you're reading

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment? Most times
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Most times
Do you have any secrets? Of course, we all do
Do you hate yourself? Sometimes
Do you like your handwriting? Yeah. I get that from my mom
Do you have any bad habits? We all do
What is the compliment you get from most people? I don't get complimented
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Mouse Ball
What's your biggest fear? Dying
Can you sing? Hell friggin yeah
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? Why would I do that?
Are you a loner? Sometimes
What are your #1 priorities in life? I really don't know....working on that
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? If I like me, then I guess the question would be yes. If not, it would be no. Duh....
Are you a daredevil? Sometimes
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Yup
Are you passive or agressive? I'm a passive person most of the time except when I get pissed and when I get pissed you'd better watch out.
Do you have a journal? Yeah, how do you like it?
What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength: Perseveracne; Weakness: Insecurity
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Come back to me in a few years
Do you think you are emotionally strong? emotionally? For the most part
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? yes
Do you think life has been good so far? talk about a millennium force ride
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Never be 100% sure. there is ALWAYS the chance for error
What do you like the most about your body? Can't say....... ;)
And least? I despise my feet
Do you think you are good looking? nope
Are you confident? mostly
What is the fictional character you are most like? John from A Prayer for Owen Meany
Are you perceived wrongly? I think we all are at some point
Do You...
Smoke? never
Do drugs? never
Read the newspaper? yeah, I read the University News
Pray? very seldom
Go to church? sometimes
Talk to strangers who IM you? Sometimes other times, I just ignore them when they have names like hotmegan128473
Sleep with stuffed animals? No, I don't I have them though
Take walks in the rain? Of course "Speed Freaks needs fives"
Talk to people even though you hate them? I don't hate many people and those that I do, I try to be at least civil with.
Drive? Yeah
Like to drive fast? Sometimes

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice? Prolly
Hurt yourself? Yeah
Been out of the country? Canada (which really shouldn't count) United Kingdom, The Bahamas, U.S. Virgin Islands (once again really shouldn't count)
Eaten something that made other people sick? Probably
Been in love? nope
Done drugs? didn't you ask this already
Gone skinny dipping? wow
Had a medical emergency? I guess i will when I die
Had surgery? yeah
Ran away from home? i think so
Played strip poker? yeah (shhh......)
Gotten beaten up? yeah.....by a chick.....just kidding...cuzz...
Beaten someone up? people don't fuck wiht the master
Been picked on? yeah. I cried
Been on stage? A Piece About War (why wasn't it A Peace About War)
Slept outdoors? Yeah
Thought about suicide? Yeah, for a split second.
Pulled an all nighter? It was a high school
If yes, what is your record? 38 hours. I'm not crazy like some people
Gone one day without food? Nah, not really
Talked on the phone all night? I'm a guy. We don't do that type of shit...well chad did.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? Yeah
Slept all day? Of course
Killed someone? Would I tell you if I did?
Made out with a stranger? A stranger? no!
Had sex with a stranger? Yeah it was hot and heavy too. but it was a dream.............fuck you!
Thought you're going crazy? Hell Yeah
Kissed the same sex? possibly
Done anything sexual with the same sex? possibly
Been betrayed? When I was young, but it was just "tough love?"
Had a dream that came true? Deja vu all the friggin time
Broken the law? I speed, I copy music, download music and I love kiddie porn.. except for that last part
Met a famous person? Yeah. My sister's name in a previous life was John Fitzgerald Kennedy
Have you ever killed an animal by accident? No
On purpose? No
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Yeah but it was for the person's own good. I don't keep secrets that shouldn't be kept. Like don't tell me you're gonna kill yourself.
Stolen anything? Yeah music count?
Been on radio/tv? Yeah. National Geographic thing on Top Thrill Dragster
Been in a mosh-pit? no
Had a nervous breakdown? nervous? no
Bungee jumped? no
Had a dream that kept coming back? yeah
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets? of course
Miracles? sometimes. I'm a pessimist
Astrology? no
Magic? yeah right
God? i'm abstaining at the moment
Satan? i think that man is satan. Satan is an excuse for those people who want to blame someone else for their own actions
Santa? :(
Ghosts? Not sure but my house makes funny noises at night
Luck? yeah
Love at first sight? if love means sex
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? yes
Witches? it's a "religion"
Easter bunny? no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? i'm a pessimist remember?
Do you wish on stars? sometimes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? not really sure
Do you think God has a gender? no
Do you believe in organized religion? i'm abstaining
Where do you think we go when we die? not sure
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? yup
Who is your best friend? i don't know. I'm gonna say my computer. but prolly Marshall or someone like that
Who's the one person that knows most about you? Kirkland and Dana
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Take a year off of school
Your favourite inside joke? mmmmmm.iogiheoigheoighioehgioehiogheiohgioeheiohioehioehioehioheuo
Thing you're picked on most about? my ethnicity. it's all in fun. I'm an "equal opportunity hater" and so are my friends
Who's your longest known friend? If i still hung out with him, john cheney by far. that being 17 years but I'll go with the k-man
Friends you miss being close to the most? Burrows, Bess, Lisa and Michelle
Last person you talked to online? Steph
Who do you talk to most online? Steph, Marshall, Dan, Chris
Who are you on the phone with most? Dad
Who do you trust most? Marshall...I'm going to have to reevaluate that. I'm habing some trust issues
Who listens to your problems? My blog and my marshall
Who do you fight most with? Marhsall. but we live together so yeah.
Who's the nicest? Bess
Who's the most outgoing? Marshall. He somehow brings weirdos back to our room.
Who's the best singer? Dana
Who's on your shit-list? Michelle Reynolds
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? yeah
Who's your second family? My GA people and My CP people
Do you always feel understood? no
Who's the loudest friend? Krystle
Do you trust others easily? no, not really. I"m a very closed person
Who's house were you last at? My own but visitng...it would be my grandmother
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Marshall in a catch me if I fall type of way
Do your friends know you?
Friend that lives farthest away: Prune
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake? No, I consider it a state of mind that can be altered
What do you find romantic? the sunset and a nice sexy plane
Turn-on: Intelligence
Turn-off? Brin Anderson, do everything to make myself seem better shit
First kiss? Saundra
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel? Depends
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them: yeah
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out? Doesn't matter
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: no
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? ask them
What is best about the opposite sex? they don't konw when to shut up.. Just like me
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? They don't let me talk
What's the last present someone gave you? Don't remember
Are you in love? no
Do you consider your significant other hot? n/a
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you? me
You wanted to kill? Dan Fox
That you laughed at? Scrimenti
That laughed at you? in front of me? Dana
That turned you on? Cannot disclose said information
You went shopping with? My mom because she didn't want to drive or wait for my dad to drive her.
That broke your heart? Never really happened
To disappoint you? me
To ask you out? Don't remember
To make you cry? me
To brighten up your day? Dana
That you thought about? A couple people in the GA Class of 04
You saw a movie with? my mom
You talked to on the phone? mom
You talked to through IM/ICQ? Stephanie. you asked that about a half hour ago
You saw? Dana
You lost? don't lose people
Right This Moment...
Are you going out? No fuckin way in this snow
Will it be with your significant other? n/a
Or some random person? no
What are you wearing right now? clothes
Body part you're touching right now: all of me since all of me touches me
What are you worried about right now? school
What book are you reading? A Brave New World
What's on your mousepad? don't need one
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: tired, pissed off, miserable, relived
Are you bored? kinda
Are you tired? yes
Are you talking to anyone online? intermittently
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no, i'm watching a movie, doing this and talking to steph online if i was on the phone.....
Are you lonely or content? both
Are you listening to music? Brothers In Arms, Dire Straits

Gilmour Alumni College Brunch

Sing we all of Gilmour, the praise of alma mater
Cherish and remember the pride of blue and gray
Gilmour we salute thee, and promise as our aim
To uphold forever the glory of thy name

The Trip Home

After the congestion on I-64 and I-170, I get to the airport and the guy at the counter says "...and walk slowly to the gate because I hear that flight's been delayed to what I hear is some nasty weather in Cleveland." Well he was right we didn't leave until about eight and didn't get into Cleveland until around 10:00pm. The weather in Cleveland was abysmal. I was scared...yes the ASPP major was scared that the pilot was gonna crash. Bumpy landing. Then....the drive home....never been so happy to see a driveway. I-90 was horrid. Glad I'm home. Hope to keep posting.

Trapped

I feel trapped by everything around me
School, home, the Federal Aviation Administration
My heart is no longer in it.
When one loses heart, one loses all.
I have lost all and have thus lost heart.
I honestly don't know where this road will take me.
I do know however that the journey will not be fun.
Why can't the journey be fun? I want it to be fun....
I guess it wouldn't be life if we had our ways all the time.
Why is the only thing I care about is actually being away from school?
Why do I hate it so much?
I guess joseph said it best......"flyin is the only thing that makes me feel like im doin something."
So there I said it... I feel like I'm doing nothing; sitting idly while the world passes me by.
I hate my life.

Darkness...

Darkness is the dawn of the mysterious and the unknown,
Darkness is the onslaught of hopelessness and despair
Darkness is the point from which there is no return...
Darkness is hoping for good in future days
Darkness is only the beginning
For darkness brings with it,
The light of a new day.

The Forgotten

Bobby wants to be a lawyer,
Chris a surgeon and
Aaron a pilot.
But...
Bobby has a stutter,
Chris a nervous twitch and
Aaron, well he just can't concentrate.
They are all inferior.
We fill their heads with lies, fairy tales and dreams deferred...
They can be what they want to be.
But, a lawyer speaks well,
Surgeons have steady hands and
Pilots have nerves of steel.
Turns out you can't defer a dream that which will never happen.
The boys are soldiers now, that's all they can be.
Even now they're misfits.
Not wanted where the want to be or where they're going...
The boys are dead now, died in a war.
They had dreams never realized never touched.
They had dreams impossible for them to ever touch.
We told them lies, we said "do it boy!"
Look at them now, six feet in the dirt.
Look at them now, how it must hurt...
To never get the chance to do what you truly love.
We gave them an illusion, we gave them hope.
We gave them the idea of a dream deferred.
Look at them now,
So much for that dream deferred.

Dunkirk

I try so hard to make it work.
But wind up feeling like the French at Dunkirk.
I have my ups, I have my downs.
In the end I just go round and round.
My life feels like a roller coaster,
Lots of hills and lots of valleys,
Leading me everywhere and back to go.
Is this where I want to be?
Am I being true to me?
My mind says give it up
Yet my heart says wait and see.
Do I go or do I stay?
Do I give up or enter the fray?
Some men say follow your heart,
But do I want that broken?
Two roads diverged in a burg, and I -
I want to take the one which, when traveled by,
Will make all the difference

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Broken Headlights

Sitting here, mind all in shambles.
Don't know what to do, feel so lost.
Too early to stop, too late to change.
All I see is a vortex of dreams mixed all about.
Dreams I have, dreams I've had.
So many dead ends and the tail lights are broken - I can't see.
How does one tell if he's on another road that's "not a thru street?"
Why do I feel like life and the American dream are just....
A boulevard of broken dreams?